Did I realize how hard? Probably not.
If these were writing or business/marketing classes, I'd be feeling busy, but not overwhelmed for the most part. To say my left brain is getting worked a bit more would be an understatement.
I know I CAN do this. I'm just not so sure about lifestyle I'll have while doing it. No joke. In three days, school has me reconsidering just what I could do with my fabulous skills of writing, marketing, project management and event planning.
When you go to college that first time, everything is exciting and new. But the second time, without everything being new/different and staying up late laughing with college roomies, it's not so glamorous.
My backpack is huge. Granted, I have books, a binder and my work clothes in there.
Sure, it might be more purposeful. But at this point, I've grown accustom to having evenings to with what I wish, weekends to run my little heart out, spend time outside and travel.
I've also grown accustom to having a salary and while modest, it allows me some safety and a little room to enjoy life.
Going back to school, buying books, oh and wedding planning isn't exactly a financial plan. At least I don't see it that way. I'm still dreaming of a day when I have the money to need a financial planner - ha! Not ranting here. I realize I put myself in this situation. Just dealing with the effects. ;)
Oh, but this post was supposed to be about Finding your Zen (when your head is about to explode).
Clearly, I'm going to need some tools to decompress when life feels overwhelming. Here's what I'm thinking:
- Meditating zen like pandora station - water flowing, Enya type stuff
- Good tea
- A zen study space
- Quick ways to unwind (10-15 min at a time)
Tonight, I made my return to Lifeforce Fitness after being absent for a few months. It was a great stress reducer and an awesome workout.
The class went a little like this: 30 min yoga flow, 2 sets x 25 fast squat jumps, 2 sets dolphin push ups, plank hold, 2 sets ab crunches, 2 x 12 burpees, 2 sets clean & jerks, walking lunges w/ weights, pull ups, 2 sets oblique dips and top knee to elbow, chest press on ab ball, back extension, 1 set death ball and finally a stretcharoo!
Ironically, Lisa also posted about finding calm among the chaotic moments in life. Bring on the zen, people!